Alienation

No one understands. No one.
I'm supposed to cringe at myself for saying such a thing, "what a cliche thing to say." "So emo." "That's totally not fashionable." "It lacks a certain self-superioristic sense abou--"
No! Fuck you, no one understands.
I look honestly for people to understand.. they always betray. I didn't want it to be this way. I betrayed myself a hundred thousand times trying to pretend like it's not really this way, that people can relate, that they are a deep friend who knows what I do. Those who maintain constant awareness are nary around. Only a brief rare moment, here.. maybe way over there, once, possibly twice.. then, gone.
They see my gripe, and tell me, "I understand"
No, we are alone.