Thursday, October 13, 2016

Socially Repressed Guilt

Basically the whole of society, or the apparent, visible whole, would seem to indicate that promiscuity is something that is universally accepted and taken for granted. Maybe not on every level, as everyone seems to have at least some element to criticize, but it seems you would be hard pressed to find anyone that doesn't accept at least some degree of it as OK. At the very least, I can surely say that anyone who would suggest it's all wrong and refuses to participate very clearly puts themselves in a position of strong ridicule, and being cast as a freak, backwards idiot, mythological creature or anomaly.

The whole of media, music and so on goes along demonstrating this, using sex, social power and hierarchy as the primary selling point, and desensitizing us, brainwashing us with casual attitudes towards it, hypnotizing, to see it as something taken for granted, without a care, and this taken-for-granted attitude of course in turn is the reason why a person who goes against it becomes seen as ridiculous and laughable. For all I know you may even be reading this right now, feeling uncomfortable, thinking "Promiscuity? Virginity? What is this kid talking about, this is just embarrassing." ...You should think about that. this reaction just goes to demonstrate the point. It doesn't need to be this way, I didn't feel this dysphoria about it before I learned what most people are like, that's just the result of a sexualized power-hungry culture.

This attitude has existed at every job I've ever had, in school, family, every social circle, etc. Every media source, social attitude, everywhere I go.

If this is something people feel differently about, they (those who find fault with promiscuity) at very least are more or less completely silenced within society from speaking up about it, or being open about it. It's so severe, in fact, that people are almost completely unable to recognize what is being talked about if some rare soul does bring up the topic, and attempt to describe the significance and disturbance they feel over the misuse of sexuality and romance. Like, "What?? what are you talking about??" I find this difficult to explain exactly what I mean, but, for example, I myself have put these themes into so much of my art, and yet I am constantly confronting people who, though they may obviously pay attention to and enjoy the art, seem to have absolutely no clue whatsoever, not the faintest idea of what it is really all about, and will even say things that give off the exact opposite impression, proving how unclear it all is to them. It's, this subconscious thing in us, you know, repressed. We feel it, but won't confront it.

And yet, here we have, everywhere we go, this attitude among people that they're being unfairly judged for sex. As if they're "misunderstood". This attitude like they are rebelling.....with what they have endlessly been taught on TV, endlessly intimidated by in social dynamics, and endlessly programmed into their genes over millions of years of evolution. This attitude like they are fighting some larger group who is just so stupid and judging them ridiculously. They made the "prude" a laughing stock, a pariah, a mythological creature, yet they act so misunderstood and judged and guilty..... Why?

It's very clear to me that what they are really responding to, unknown to them, is the subconscious guilt and sense of significance about sex, that they have repressed. There is a power, a meaning to this affection that we show each other, what it symbolizes, where it comes from psychologically, the social dynamics involved, the use of bodies, the give and take, the weapon of power, the objectification, purpose, on and on.. And though we have disfigured it with rhetoric and brainwashing and desensitization to the point of becoming completely unrecognizable - just a hollow, arbitrary act - the truth is, on a certain level - deeper down perhaps in emotions where most of us can't really see clearly - the sense of what it is, what we are doing to each other: the love we show for each other and power we give and take and respect we show and so on, nevertheless still remains.

I see this constantly, as I go around online, little rants people make, art or social movements or whatever, that comes off as making an argument about sex, but which I can see clearly to reflect the ruminations the individual is having and struggling with, trying to feel absolved about but not being able to. It's clear to me these individuals feel guilty, and struggle with these thoughts, even if it's not clear to them that they are doing so.

They're doing everything they can to get away from this underlying sense of repressed significance and innocence. It seems to me that they hope to reach a point where they prove any kind of guilt associated with promiscuous romance and sex is just a false association, that we have been taught by, like, religion, or older generations, or whatever (nonsense) to see as bad, and as soon as we shed these false associations we will be free and in the clear and not bothered by it anymore.

If you are a whore, attempting to reach a place where you feel completely free and absolved about your promiscuity, I can absolutely promise this will never, ever happen, because what you are really fighting is not me, and certainly not society, but what you have pushed into your subconscious, and that can never truly go away.

"Body Collectors"